I wish I'd never checked in to see what articles I've missed. It's not fair. He was a nice guy, and I really liked him a lot from afar.
I want to have a good anecdote or "remember when..." to talk about to show how much I liked him, but it's kind of upsetting for me to say that I can't. He's one of the people that are in the soc.motss conglomerate; people that I know and love, though I can't give specific reasons why. I guess there are a lot of people like that around here; people whose contributions and friendships I value greatly, but who I don't talk with much.
The Con brought a lot of things home for me; it showed me exactly how much I cared for everyone and how much I really valued motss as a home. And now someone whose name I always directly associate with my home is gone. I don't want it to happen again, and I'd take this opportunity to tell you all that I love you and... and that I really, really love you, but to do so would be anticipating that this is going to happen again, and that's something I'm just not willing to do.
John, upset and not knowing how to deal with this, and hoping
everyone will still be around when he gets back. Please stay,
everyone...
